- Sir Toby
I am sad and have a passion for unknown, distant places. I want to see the world. And I would love it, if I just had the chance to get away for a little while. But sadly, things aren’t that easy; desire won’t change a thing.
i. Hey, it’s me. I am sorry for bothering you. But it’s midnight and I am just missing you so much. I have been reading our past conversations and I keep on wondering where the hell did we go wrong. Why can’t we just go back to where we used to be? God, I just miss you so much right now.
ii. Do you still think of me? Do you miss me sometimes? Do you hear a song and suddenly you were reminded of me? Do you look for my face in the crowd? Do you still write about me? Do you still love me? Did you ever love me?
iii. I hate you so much for doing this to me.
iv. Maybe you’re right. Maybe it’s all my fault on why we fell apart. Maybe my pride was too high and I was too immature and I am too messed up to be with someone like you. I am sorry. I am so sorry I can’t be enough for you to stay. I am so sorry for being me.
v. But it was all your fault. You told me you will stay didn’t you? You told me we can make it. But look at us now. Did you really mean those words or you just said them to make me feel better during those moments?
vi. My friends saw me with bloodshot eyes today and they kept on telling me on how much you don’t deserve my tears. And I told them, yeah, you don’t deserve my tears but I felt like I deserve the misery that I am getting from you.
vii. Please come back to me. Let’s just forget everything shall we? Let’s just start over again. Let’s just love each other right this time. Please, please, come back home.
viii. I am getting used in living my life without you again but it gets worse at night. It always gets worse at night. Do you feel the same way? If you do then you can just knock on my door any time okay? You know that we need each other.
ix. I love you so much it is killing me. Loving you is suicidal, I wonder why I’m still alive. But if you found out I’m gone, you should know that my last word would be your name.
x. I still write about you. I hope you still read them. I hope you still find my words lovely. I hope they would take you back to me. My god, let’s just continue writing our story please. I refuse that it was the end. We can’t be over yet, okay?
xi.I am still here, just so you know. I am still waiting and I don’t even know why. Am I still waiting for someone or all of this will be in vain?
xii. Just be okay. Please be okay. Tell me you’re okay. And I will try to be okay. I promise.
xiii. I tried to look at someone else today but I can’t. I felt I was betraying you the entire time. I am sorry. It’s still you my love. It will always be you.
xiv. Why are you doing this to me? Why can’t you just leave me completely?
xv. So I am kinda drunk tonight but my lips still tastes like your name. This fucking alcohol can not do its job. I can not forget you. Even just for a nigh, I just can’t.
xvi. Can you just tell me you miss me too and you’ll stay for real? Can you just come back and tell me that we are okay? That we will be okay? Why can’t it be so damn easy just like that?
xvii. I love you so much. No words, just that.
One of the best things about falling in love is when:
you’re having a hard time to find the reason why get out of your bed and then you will receive random message or call from the person you love telling you how beautiful you are and wishing you to have a good day.
And then you’ll realize that during the days that you can’t do it anymore, someone is there to be your strength and to give you reasons why you should be thankful that you’re alive.
It’s really scary when you get attached to someone. You spend time with them, you get to know them. You find yourself knowing their favorite color, food, movie, song. You discover their flaws and their talents. And as time goes on, you learn more and more, absorbing every second of detail without even realizing it. Then one day, you wake up and realize how much this person actually means to you, and you love them for every strength and weakness. They make you feel warm and secure, but most of all, they bring you happiness. And to bring happiness to someone in such a way is a strong and powerful thing. It could break a person completely. Some say those who fall in love are young and dumb. I say they show an incredible amount of bravery. It takes courage to trust somebody with your entire heart